GROWING (PAINS!) IN CHRIST

They say that without pain there can be no gain
But what about the pain that drives you insane?
Is there a greater life outside of this pain
Or will life continue on it's course of disdain?

From dust to dust we live and we die
How long must the pain cause me to cry?
The battle between good and evil must be a tie
Maybe God forgot me as He sits on high.

Where fore art thou, Oh Father of mine?
You sent Your only Son who made His life a sign.
Did He die for me or was that just a line?
Do you pass over me as You drink Your wine?

Some say I should be grateful to be alive
But what I wouldn't give to leave this dive.
The war of my existence must have begun before I was even five
A swarm of demons have made me their hive.

What did I do to deserve this bliss?
It all began with the touch of a kiss
Even now the serpent coils and gives a hiss
What would happen if he'd aim and miss?

Is there a better life out there somewhere?
Could there actually be someone who'd care?
How long must I continue in despair?
Is there a Comforter or two You could spare?

Growing pains in Christ is a life long job
There are legions all around me as part of the mob
I wallow in pity as I watch them rob
My peace was taken and I was left to sob.

Father, didn't you say You'd never forsake me?
Why do they do their will and then leave me be?
I was just a child who wanted to be free
Years later I wonder if You heard my plea.

The life I never knew now wants to be known
The pains alone are enough to make me moan
Why do You get to take back the lie You gave on loan?
Why don't you all go away and leave me alone!

How can you tell me you love me and then hurt me so?
Do you have any idea of the pain that came because of your blow?
For your sake, I hope you never have to know
How do I cleave to You when You've let me go?

We all go through growing pains in life
But Growing (Pains!) in Christ cut deeper than any knife
This world will forever be full of strife
But what You allowed has made it impossible for me to be a wife.

You say all things are possible through You
As hard as it is to admit, I need You too
Carry me through the fire and keep me close to You
I know that growth begins and ends only with You.